14. Going Deeper...

Safaree Samuels 
Hotel Suite, Dawn Beach, St. Maarten
11:00 A.M, Saturday

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They both looked at me with blank stares.  Well Gabby’s face had more of a horror-like look on it. I knew why. She still didn’t fully rub up on Nicki. That kind of thing takes time with Gabriella, and I don’t think Nicki knows that.

Nicki just watched me and sighed. She then pulled  a hand out of her hair and got up and went out the door leaving me and Gabby alone. Gabby watched me hard and I could see the tears forming in her eyes. I sighed and sat next to her. Took her into an embrace and she began to cry. No words were needed, we both knew. She kept on sniffling for a couple minutes before she wiped her face. She then raised her head to watch me in the eyes.

“Daddy, please…” she whispered.

“Baby, I know but I really want to spend some time alone. I feel stressed. I love you, but I really can’t right now.” I said carefully.

“Did I cause that?” she asked and watched me abit alarmed.

“No baby, I love you too much. You could never stress me, only make me happy.” I said with a smile and kissed her cheek. She giggled.

“I love you daddy. I really do.” She said and hugged me.

“I love you too. But promise me you won’t be hard on Nicki. She’s trying. Okay?” I answered and she sighed and looked at her feet. She looked so much like a little girl right now. Speaking about that, I’d love to have that album. I want to witness all the happy and down times she had as a little girl.

“I….I’ll try.”

“Thanks. Now, do you want me to help you pack?”

“Nah, it’s alright. I think you need to go see Ni-mom.” She said and nodded her head after her slip up.

“Yeah, okay. See you around coonette.” I said and she laughed. I got up and walked out her room. I closed the door behind me before sighing. “One down, Two to go.” I knew Nicki would go all Roman on me because of the way she sighed earlier and just walked out without a word. This was going to be tough.

I looked around the suite and couldn’t find her. She wasn’t in our bedroom or bathroom. Kitchen or balcony. So I decided to head down to the beach. I wrote Gabriella a note and went into my bedroom. I changed into some sweat-pants and placed a snap back on my head. I then placed some slippers on my feet. I then walked out the door.

I walked down to the beach. At first I didn’t see Nicki, but then when I squinted, I saw her standing near the rocks at the very beginning of beach. I took a deep breath and began jogging towards her. When I was about half way, she got up. She looked at me and then began to fast-walk in the direction of the condos. I chuckled; she looked so cute trying to run. I ran faster and caught up to her in a matter of seconds. She huffed as I pinned her to a wall. She then looked down.

“Nicki…please baby look at me.” I whispered and her head slowly rose. Her eyes twinkled abit but not as much as I originally know it does.  I then kissed her lips. She didn’t kiss back. Yup, she’s mad. “Nicki, please forgive me baby.”

“Why Safaree?”

“Because I don’t want you to be mad at me.”

“Oh really then why Safaree? Saying ‘bout you need space. We are here on Vacation. Didn’t go quite as planned, but look now we have a daughter Safaree. Imagine how she feels. Prolly thinking she’s the reason.” She yelled at me.

“Nicki, I already spoke to Gabby. She’s alright with it. I know this was meant to be a vacation, but I feel like if I leave now, it’s like I took an extra pound of stress on me. I prefer I stay for another week and then go home. Baby, I can’t right now and I need you to understand that.” I said calmly and she just shook her head.

“Who is she Safaree?”

“She who?”

“The bitch you gonna stay in the hotel with?”

“It would be you but you’re leaving tomorrow so no one.”

“Yeah, right.”

“Yeah, I’m serious. I wouldn’t dare cheat on you. You’re all that I need.”

“Then why Safaree?”

“Why what?”

“Never mind, just Safaree do me one favor.”

“What’s that?” I ask and she snakes her arms around my waist and stands on her tip toe so her lips were by my ear.

“Make love to me.” She whispered seductively. My eyebrows rose. And my heart finally skipped a beat for the first time ever.  Nicki, the girl I’ve been in love with for almost 10 years and who’s finally my girlfriend, wants us to make love. And she’ll get just that.

Gabriella Richardson 
Hotel Suite, Dawn Beach, St. Maarten
1:00 P.M, Saturday

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I finally finished packing. I wiped my brow. I was going to miss St. Maarten. I grew up here. All the memories and mistakes. Trips to the beach. My favorite beaches are Orient bay beach and Mullet bay beach. Nice waves. I then got a text from a school mate that they’re having a beach get together in my honor at Mullet. That’s cool. I’ll go then. Just going to ask.

I went out on the balcony to think. I looked around me. You could see Dawn Beach Estates. And I could barely make out the house. I was going to miss my bedroom the most. I could see the ocean from there and all the night when I was little that daddy would sit outside with me to watch the stars. It was those little things I’d miss the most. A lot was going to change. I’d be in a new environment. Starting out as the newbie. To be honest, I’m abit scared because what if they hurt me? No one would be there to protect me because they don’t know me.

I put on my bikini, which is white and pink. I then threw on a throw over and shorts. I left my curly hair out, so it was curling on my upper back. I put on my slippers and grabbed my phone. I then went into my parent’s room and sat patiently waiting on them.

Just as I heard the room door open, I got an email. That was strange because I don’t attend school here anymore. Teachers didn’t need to send me homework anymore. I opened the email and I couldn’t believe it, it was Zaire. My heart jumped abit.

“Hey princess.” Safaree said to me.

“Hey, I was about to ask you something but give me a minute. Zaire emailed me.” Him and Nicki looked at me surprised, but Nicki’s expression had more of a pained look to it. Why? I didn’t know but I was curious now what she knew that I didn’t about Zaire.

I walked out the room and out on the balcony. I then began to read.

Dear Gabby,

I miss you like crazy. I wish you were here with me to make me laugh because I feel lonely. All these other people make me feel like an outcast. I haven’t been completely honest with you and now I’m also still not going to tell you. I feel that this sort of thing should happen when the time is right. I first of all want to say I’m so sorry. I tried contacting you at the hospital, but something came up. I’m no longer on St. Maarten. I left a couple days ago. I got your email and my heart hurt. I didn’t want you to be like that. I want you to promise me that you won’t EVER cut again, I know you, and remember all the good memories we had.

How’s everything? Are you happy?

Hope to hear from you soon.

Love you always,

Zaire.

I cried alittle. Yup, she really does know me. Even about the cutting. We had conversations about that so she I think placed the pieces together. What I hated though that something was happening and it seems as if I was the only one that didn’t know what was going on. I hated that. But as I ask to promise, I’ll try to smile.

Then walked back inside and I could hear Nicki and Safaree talking. It sounded like an argument. As I was walking to my room door, I could hear him yelling something and my name. I thought he was calling me, but then I heard Nicki talk.

“Safaree, it’ll crush her.”

“Still Nicki, she deserves to know.”

“I promised I wasn’t going to speak about it until I got the okay.”

“Nicki, she won’t ever be able to forgive you, remember the first time?!?”

“Safaree stop, I don’t want her to hear us. Keep your voice down.”

What the hell? I walked in the room angrily and they both looked at me with guilt.

“What’s up? What are you guys not telling me?”

“Baby, please don’t worry about that.” Nicki said to me and I just glared at her.

“I will worry about it because my name was in the conversation. “ I said and folded my arms over my chest.

“Look Gabriella, can you please just let it go for now and go do something.” Safaree said to me in a tone that was dead-serious.

“Y-yes dad.”

“Good, now what was it you were going to ask earlier?”

“To go to Mullet Bay, some schoolmates are having a beach party as my farewell party.”

“You can go, be home by 7.”

“Alright. Thanks. See you later.” I said and started to go. I then turned back around and gave Safaree a hug. Nicki, I just smiled at her. She seemed hurt that I didn’t hug her but that’s what you get when you want to keep secrets from me.

I went down to the lobby and took a taxi to the beach. This was going to be tons of fun.

Nicki Minaj 
Hotel Suite, Dawn Beach, St. Maarten
2:30 P.M, Saturday

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I looked at Safaree. He looked at me. We both sighed and sat next to each other on our bed. I then got over on his lap and turned so that I was straddling him. He just looked up at me with sad eyes. I felt guilty so I stopped looking into them.

“Faree?”

“Mmhmm?”

“Stop it, and let us enjoy this.”

“Okay.” He answered and kissed me. As we made out, I could clearly feel him rising through his pants. I giggled. He was ready for me. He took off my top and kissed my neck. I moved my head to the side to give him more access. It felt so good. His big, juicy lips. He then kissed the top of my breasts. My nipples hardened. He then took off my bra and let it fall on the floor. He took one of my breasts into his mouth and nibbled on it. I moaned. It felt so good. One of my hands trailed down to my thong and I rubbed my box. He noticed and moved it. He then continued kissing down my stomach and my breaths became abit hitched. He then took off my thong and I closed my legs as if to say I was shy. He carefully pulled them back apart and began to kiss my inner thighs. Then he blew cold air on my box. I shivered abit. I chuckled and began to eat me.

“Urgh…. Faree…. T-That…..Feels s-so…..goood.” I moaned as he did his thing. My hips were rolling along with the manner in which he was licking and sucking. He softly bit my spot and I’d squeal in delight and pain. He then took off his sweats, revealing his erect member. It was so big. I don’t think it would fit. It was so long ago that a member was in my box.

“You ready?” he asked as he member stood at the entrance. I nodded and he slowly slid in. It hurt abit but it felt too good. He began at a slow pace at first and sped up. My breasts happily bounced along. My nails scratched up his back. He grunted here and there. We came at the same time and I flipped us over so that I was straddling and began bouncing on him. He held on my hips to guide us.

“I’m …. G-gonna …Cummmm!” I screamed and came. My legs became weak and collapsed. He held on to me and placed me on his chest. He thought I was done. I wanted to relieve him from some stress. I took his erected member in my hand and looked at it.

“Don’t do it, if you don’t want to.” He warned me but I ignored him. I began to rub it. I then licked the tip a couple of times and looked him in the eyes. I then took him into my mouth and deep throated him. He grunted here and there.

“Urggg….Nicki that’s good….” He grunted and held my hair so it wouldn’t get in the way. After a couple of minutes he came in my mouth and I swallowed it. I then collapsed next to him on the bed. We kissed for a couple of minutes and fell asleep.

Around 6:30, I heard a tiny knock on the door, and a few seconds later Gabriella’s walked in. I wanted to get out of bed, but then I realized I was butt naked so I woke up Safaree. He looked up and got out of bed. He had new sweats on. When did he get up?

“Had fun baby?” he asked her and she nodded happily.

“I got a few things. I placed them in my room, want to see?”

“Sure.” He said and walked out with her, leaving me alone. I got out of bed and collapsed almost instantly. My legs were still weak.

“He really did a number on me.” I whispered to myself and giggled. I then filled the tub and got in. I soon fell asleep again.

I woke up 2 hours later, with a bra and thong on. When did I get here? My thought was soon answered when Safaree walked in. He had a dress and heels in his hands. He smiled at me when he noticed I was up.

“Hey baby.”

“Hi Queen.” He answered.

“Whatchu up to?”

“Went to get you and Gabby dresses and heels, well ballerina’s for Gabby. I going to take you guys out.

“Oh Okay.” I said and walked towards him. He chuckled and I looked at him confused.

“You’re walking funny.” He said and laughed. I gasped and pouted. He took me into an embrace and I got ready. The dress I was wearing was strapless fitted me perfectly and hugged my curves. It stopped mid-thigh. The color was a nice soft pink.

When I was finished, I walked into the kitchen to see Gabriella on her phone. She did her hair in a high bun. Her dress was similar to mines. The only difference hers had a puffy skirt. And she had ballerina’s on. She had on alittle make up. She had her special pillow in her hand. I made a mental note to get it diverse covers because it didn’t match anything.

“You look pretty.”

“Thanks, you too.” She answered without looking up. I knew she was upset, but I don’t want to to ruin the fun.

“Gabriella, hand me your phone.” She looked up and watched me confused me before locking it and giving it to me. “I want this night to be about us 3 as a family. And I want you to smile. I don’t really want to get into why you’re acting so distant towards me, but I just really want us all to have a good time tonight understood?” I said abit stern and she nodded slowly before taking a seat and waiting. I placed her phone in my bag and walked onto the balcony.

Safaree took us to The Point in Maho. It was nice. The service and food were good. Safaree and Gabriella were laughing at each other’s jokes and when I’d make one she’d just smile and Safaree would laugh. I know I’m hurting her abit but I need her to trust me. I can’t keep doing this, but I promised. Her phone vibrated in my bag, and sinds it was on my lap, I took it out and placed it on my lap. It was locked and I didn’t know the code. I tried guessing. I got it wrong, then I got an idea. I tried her birthday and it unlocked. It was a message from Zaire. It read:

“Gabbriella, I can’t keep it from you any longer. I have stage four cancer and am going to die soon. I hate having to break it to you this way, but I had too. I’m not going to die today or tomorrow but maybe in a couple months. I told Nicki so she knows. Please don’t get mad at her. I told her not to tell you. I wanted to be happy. It was killing me inside not to tell you. Also I wanted to confess something. I have a crush on you. I know you love me too, but never told me. It’s instinct. I love you a lot and wish you were here.

Love you baby,

Zaire.

I couldn’t believe it. Without thought, I deleted the message. Safaree and Gabriella were too deep in their conversation to realize what I was doing. I was in too deep this time. And Gabriella surely wouldn’t forgive me.