Zaire Healy
Hospital, Belair, St. Maarten
7:45 A.M, Monday
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God I feel awful, the pain is excruciating. I wish Gabby was here with me. I know that she'd be mad with me, but I can't do anything about that right now. My parents refuse to give me the phone. I yelled and screamed but it went all in vain. They still refused. I sighed and cried myself to sleep ever sinds.
Today the doctor was going to tell me what was wrong with me. I was abit excited and also scared. I just hope it isn't anything mayor. God, please bring Gabby to me, I don't want to go through this alone. I waited about 30 minutes before the doctor showed up. He had this pained look on his face.
"Hi doc." I said softly then coughed. I covered my mouth and when I removed it, I saw blood in it again. My parents looked at me. My mother had tears in her eyes. I was starting to get more worried. What the hell was going on. The doctor took a deep breath before speaking.
"Well Zaire, it was tested and confirmed that you have cancer. Stomach cancer to be exact." he said with sympathy in his voice. Also, we will be transferring you to the UMCG in Groningen for treatment. You will leave as soon as possible so maybe even tomorrow.
My mother cried in my dad's arms. I just stayed quiet. The only thing that was going through my mind was Gabby. This would crush her. I knew she loved me more than a best friend and stuff, so it would literally tear her apart. We were gonna go to college together after high school. We would share a room and always stay by each other’s side. I cried just thinking of it all.
My parents left soon after because my mother needed to rest and catch herself about the news. I told them right before they left, not to tell anyone. I don't need anyone to know right now, not even Gabby no matter how bad I wanted to tell her.
I wrote a note for her. I was careful not to mention anything about Holland and my illness. I just want her to be happy. Even if it meant that we would no longer see each other. I cried while writing this, i knew she would already be angry with me because i haven't visited her yet. I sobbed. After about 15 minutes of crying, I rang my doctor and nurse. They both came in and stood on either side of my bed.
"Okay, you know Gabriella Richardson?" I asked and only the doctor nodded her.
"Yes, I do, I’m her doctor as well." He answered.
"Okay well she's my bestfriend... I just want you guys to keep it quiet about me. Don't even mention that I’m in here again. Oh, and give her this note. If she asks how you got it, just say that I was here but was in a rush." I said and looked them both in the eyes.
"Understood, we will ensure that you what you just mentioned is done miss Healy." the doctor answered. The nurse just nodded. I smiled a little than handed him the note.
"Thanks." i said. They turned to leave but then I yelled out.
"Wait, i have one more question for you both." They stood and watched me. "What are your names?”
The doctor answered first. "Well I’m doctor Arrendell and this is nurse Jackie." The nurse nodded at her name then spoke.
"Honey, if yuh need anything call meh eh?" she said in her Sint Maarten accent. I giggled as my reply. They both walked out with a smile. I yawned and soon fell asleep. I have been feeling so sleepy. God this sucks.
Gabriella Richardson
Hospital, Belair, St. Maarten
9:00 A.M, Monday
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Yay, I’m leaving today. I'm walking better so therapy wasn't really needed. Nicki was going to let Safaree take me home to get some of my stuff so that I could stay with them. My family thought it was best sinds they were the ones that were by my side every day. It made my eyes water.
I am kind of disappointed in Zaire. She left the hospital before me, and ever sinds I haven’t heard anything from her. It made me also abit sad. My crush, my love, my bestfriend. This is the first time that we haven’t spoken in less than 24 hours. It killed me and I had a feeling it’s killing her too. Something had to be very wrong. Maybe her mother was ill or someone else in her family like her grandmother. I knew she loved that woman so much. We would crack jokes and go to the beach. And she’d buy us candy and take the blame if we got in trouble.
I was busy stretching when a nurse came in my room. She put down a tray with my medication, juice and a note on it. She smiled at me before leaving. I took my meds and then opened the note. It was in Zaire’s handwriting. My heart jumped alittle before I started reading. It said:
“Dear Gabby,
I want to start off by saying I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I couldn’t be there for you and even now still. I’m writing this because it would be a lot easier for me and you maybe as well. I’m leaving Sint Maarten but I can’t say where. I won’t call you anymore and I don’t think I’ll be doing social media as well. I just want to be left alone. I know this might hurt you, but please also don’t try to look for me. I want you to just be happy with Nicki and the rest. I don’t want to be in the way of that. I know you love me and trust me I love you too, but I’m really sorry that I couldn’t like hug or even kiss you goodbye. You’re the bestest bestfriend any one could ask for and I hope that you’d understand. I will always love you and take care of yourself.
Bye,
Your bestfriend Zaire.
Ps. Always remember to smile and move forward. I don’t want you getting all depressed over this all. I really am going to miss you and I cried and cried. You’re the best!”
I threw down the letter and sobbed. What she didn’t trust me enough to tell me what was going on. Now she’s gone. The same nurse came and comforted me. My doctor also came and when he saw my face, he had guilt written all over his. I wanted to know. My heart felt it had been ripped from my body. I was so depressed. I want her to come in my room laughing, telling me that it was just a prank and that I could dry my tears. I would’ve been so pissed then we’d play fight and then go out and eat ice cream or something. Something was up with her, and I was curious to find out what it was.
I spent the entire morning just gathering my things and my thoughts. I didn’t want Nicki or Safaree questioning me. I just wanted to play it cool ‘til I was home.
They came and we went into my parent’s house. Nicki then went off to do whatever it was that she was going to do. Safaree helped himself to our TV while I went into my bedroom. I got out one of my biggest suitcases and stuffed it with some of my clothes, shoes, jewelry, and hygiene stuff and so on. I also took my school uniform. I was planning on going back tomorrow. Didn’t want to miss anything. I took one of my sport bags and took my diary and the presents that Zaire gave me, so like CD’s bracelets, song lyrics pictures and our scrapbook with all the important dats of our friendship. I basically cleared my desk. I called out to Safaree and he helped me bring them outside. I was going to miss this place.
He called a taxi and they brought my stuff to the hotel. We could’ve walked it, but tja, he insisted that we took a taxi. When we got in the room. He told me to give him a moment to clear up a room for me. I was guessing it was his room.
“Where will you sleep then?” I asked him. He just looked at me and smiled.
“With Nicki.”
I nodded as reply. When he was finished moving his stuff, he helped me with mine. All this time Nicki still wasn’t back. All the stuff that I did today kept my mind off Zaire. Nicki was back for dinner. It was a quiet one. Both her and Safaree kept glancing over at me. Then she cleared her throat.
"I have news you would want to hear.” She stated . I nodded for her to continue. “I adopted you.” She said with a small smile waiting for my reaction. Safaree seemed happy about it. I just shrugged. I just really wanted to go to bed. They both looked hurt. After dinner, I showered and got ready for bed.
As soon as I felt my head hit that pillow, I cried. I really didn’t know how to move forward without Zaire. We had so much planned that we would do together. I opened our scrapbook and searched for the song list we made. I chose to listen to ‘gravity’ that was sung by Alex and Sierra from the ‘X Factor.’ I cried myself to sleep listening to it.
Nicki Minaj
Hotel Suite, Dawn Beach, St. Maarten
9:00 P.M, Monday
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I felt to hurt that she seemed not to care, but I could tell something was bothering her. Was it her bestfriend or a bully? I wanted to see her smile, an actual smile. Safaree cuddled with me because I refused to fall asleep. I wanted to talk to Gabby.
At around 11 at night, I went to check on her. She was crying softly. When she realized someone was in the room she stopped and stayed quiet. Her back was turned to me, so I couldn’t see her face.
“Can you please go?” she asked quietly. That stung abit but I still obeyed. I slowly closed her door and went back to bed. Safaree stared at my now sad face. He sighed and then just held me.
“Don’t worry Nic, she’ll come around. We’ll find out what’s the matter with her in the morning.” He said kissing my forehead before kissing my lips. I smiled. Soon we both fell asleep.
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