11. Making Up

Safaree Samuels
Hotel Suite, Dawn Beach, St. Maarten
7:45 A.M, Wednesday

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I am honestly pissed with Nic pulling that stunt with Gabriella. Like seriously, why are you so stubborn? Can’t you see this sort of things take time? I slammed our door last night, and she took the hint as in ‘you’re not welcome here.’ I couldn’t really sleep last night. I could clearly hear Gabby crying, but I didn’t want to run into Nicki right then. I just tossed and turned. Played some games on my phone and check twitter. Talked to some of the Vaks and just thought.

I woke up this morning, and showered. I was going to take a jog around the area. I just needed to clear my head. When I walked out the room, I could see Nicki sleeping while holding Gabriella. They both seemed at peace. Their faces weren’t so swollen and red anymore. Guess she apologized to her. I just stared at them, then went into my room and took my phone. I snapped a picture of them and saved it as my wallpic. I know, I’m still angry, but if Gabby forgave her last night, then that doesn’t matter anymore. Well, not that much.

I jogged around the hotel and on the beach. After about an hour, I just sat by the bar near the pool and drank a smoothie. I was finally getting the relaxation I needed out of this vacation. We were leaving Sunday, but maybe I should stay another week. It’s just been too much, I want to be alert when Gabby needs me, but I feel full. I just want to be alone.

Gabriella Richardson

Hotel Suite, Dawn Beach, St. Maarten
9:00 A.M, Wednesday

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I slowly stirred as beams of sunlight hit my face. It takes a split second before my eyes adjust on my surroundings. Nicki had a sort of tight grip on me, so it wasn’t easy getting out of bed without her waking. Then I caught myself. What time is it?!? I dashed into the main room. The clock read 9:05. I shrieked. I ran back into my room and accidentally slammed my bathroom door shut. I could hear that Nicki fell off the bed with a ‘thud’.

“OUWWWWW!” she wailed sleepily

“Sorry!” I yelled back.

I quickly showered and got myself ready. When I saw my face in the mirror, I stopped. My eyes were still red and puffy. I looked like a living zombie. I wasn’t going to school no matter how I thought about it. They would just tease me more. As soon as I thought about all of that, a tear slipped my eyes. I couldn’t do this, I needed something or someone to take the pain away. Someone? I doubt I would find someone, everyone I knew just left or was currently hurting me, or even hurt me already. So my mind went to something. What about cutting? “No dumb fxck, that will just make it worse.” My thoughts rang. But I decided to still try it. I looked for a razor. I put it near my wrist and let it slide. One cut became two. Two went on to being three and so on. At about 6 I stopped. It made the pain go away for just that time. I didn’t even cry. I watched my blood as it trickled down my arm. Those were my tears. I was done trying. Sorry Safaree, I just can’t.

I quickly cleaned up after about 10 minutes. I looked into my room to see if Nicki was still in my bed, she wasn’t. Good. I quickly picked out an outfit. I wore leggings and a sweater. I was gonna be hot. This isn’t the kind of weather for sweaters but I needed something to cover the cuts. My wristbands and bangles, I could like make my own style out of it, so Nicki and Safaree won’t suspect anything. Great. I rolled up my sleeves took out some bangles and wristbands. Now I looked normal, well like myself.

I walked into the main room to see Nicki in deep thought. A tear was falling from her eyes.  I walked up to her and gave her a hug, she hugged back.

“Morning Ladybug.” She said and gave me a small smile

“Morning mama.”

“You hungry?”

“Yeah.”

“Ait, I’ll get you something.” She said and called room service. Breakfast came up around 10 minutes later. We ate in silence. Once we were finished, I looked around. I haven’t seen Safaree yet.

“Uh ma, where dad?” I asked and then regretted it. Nicki just stopped and stood. The tears were flowing down her cheeks. I guess he’s not talking to her. I hugged her and listened to her cry. I didn’t know what to say to soothe her.

After her little crying session, she got up.

“I’m going back to bed. If Safaree asks for me, tell him I’m sick and want to be alone.

“Oh okay ma, love you.” I said placing a kiss on her cheek. She smiled small and retreated to her room. Guess I’ll head to mine and study or something.

Nicki Minaj
Hotel Suite, Dawn Beach, St. Maarten
10:30 A.M, Wednesday

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I didn’t sleep. I just held the covers over me. It had Safaree’s scent. It was killing me softly that he hasn’t spoken to me yet, even though I deserved it. I just want him to hold me and tell me that he loves me. I really do like him and he makes me happy, but what is happening to us? I just cried and cried. Somehow I fell asleep.

I woke up around 12 to see him hovering over me. He had sadness in his eyes. And love. It made my eyes water once again. He wiped away the tears and lifted me out of the bed. And just held me. I took in his scent.

“Nic?”

“Mmhmm.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

“And Nic?”

“Yes?”

“I forgive you. I was just upset that you would do something like that. We have to help her up, not break her down. I just want us all to be happy together. I’m spry I shutted you out last night. I shouldn’t have done that.” He whispered into my ears. I looked him in the eyes. I could see that he meant every word he’d just say. I kissed him softly. He kissed back. We deepend the kisses and it turned heated quickly.

I stopped him, before anything more happened. I smiled at him and he smiled at me.

“I love you Faree.”

“I love you more Nika.” He said and pecked my lips.

“Well, I don’t want to stay in here the whole day. So let’s go to the beach for the rest of the day. All three of us as a family.” I beamed and he laughed.

“Oh okay, I’ll get Gabby.”

We soon went down to the beach. Gabby loved the ocean and dove right in. Safaree and I watched her and held hands. This was the moment. We took photos and went out to lunch at the restaurant. The owners knew Gabby, so we just played it off. Gabby already told us not to tell anyone because new spreaded here like a wildfire. And we didn’t need that.

Look at us. One finally happy family. I was loving it.